So, it seems as though I have motivation to write once things get a little shitty. Oh well, I will try to include happy things along with my shitty things.


.Shitty.
One of the residents I work with once a week got sick last Saturday while I was working. On Monday he went to the hospital and now I just got a call that he is being transfered to hospice care and does not have a lot of time left at all. We are talking hours, maybe days. Sad sad sad. He was my favorite at that home.


.Not so Shitty.
This August Leo and I are going to take a week and go to Hayward WI and stay in a cabin with my family. Leo has a week off in August from his rotations and I will have enough PTO so I am looking forward to that greatly.


.Shitty.
My laptop broke. It was the one I have had for 5 years-- I had it since Junior year in college fro WSU and it was a crappy computer then and super shitty now. Leo was able to take my hard drive and put it in his old even shittier computer but I hate it. I would love a mac but HOWWWW. I am working OT just to makes ends meet and every paycheck I am trying to save 20-30 dollars for a baby.


.Not so Shitty.
I am going home in one week for a four day break. My sister is meeting me there and I already have lunch dates and family time planned so that is awesome.


.Shitty.
Oh I literally just burnt the hell out of my mouth drinking coffee through a slightly confusing mug with this weird top.


.Not so Shitty.
Spring will be here in a couple short months.



Anyways, more later. I amd oing laundry today and also making a yumy turkey dinner for my hubby tonite.

So, yay I have today and tomorrow off. I have a meeting with a couple big wigs on friday that I usually go to but I think I am going to call and let them know I am not going to go this friday. It is such a boring committee but I was invited to join and I like going there in hopes of helping me work my way up Mosaic. I am just frustrated because I am SICK of working in the entry level position when I have a friggen BA. I am NOT making any money, I work 50+ hour weeks regularly to make ends meet, and I already have supervisory experience. Just typing this out is making me mad. But, as an afterthought. I am not going to look for a new job here in Des Moines. We are only going to be here for 1.25 more years and come Fall we may start trying for a baby so that would not really go well to get hired and then a month later tell them I am pregnant. BUT- I VOW to you when we move back to La Crosse I am NOT accepting a position that does not require my degree EVEN if we are in need of money. I need to hold out and utilize my degree otherwise I may never.


On a less boring note I am enjoying watching Season 4 of Sex and the City (again). Then, around 10 I am going to go get a coffee and wait for Leo to get on his lunch break, we are going to Panera then when he goes back to school I am going to go grocery shopping and then bake some cookies at home. Tomorrow I am planning on not going ANYWHERE and just do laundry and chill at home.


And on a last last note I HATE my computer. My original one broke and then I am using Leo's shell with my hard drive and now his is acting up. AWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!

I would like to start out by saying that regular soy ilk tastes like flour... I am just saying...


I worked 7-3pm today, like usual. I went and visited R in the hospice this morning. It is weird because he looks like his usual self just tired. I do not know what I was expecting but... Bonnie the nurse says he COULD pull out of it... Never say never...


This afternoon I had an employee retention committee which ate up the last two hours of my shift and that was that. Leo gave plasma today for the first time for $20 and decided the area was too shoddy and he is not going to do it anymore. He was going to save up for some nice shoes but he elected to take me out to dinner with the moola and we went to 'On The Border' and then went to the Mac store to browse new laptops since mine is shot.


We came home and just got done watching 'Shutter' from netflix. I have tomorrow off *happy dance* but Leo is going to study alllll day so I dunno what I am gonna do. I did a lot of cleaning on thursday when I had off. I could go to Walmart and get the couple of things I need... Maybe I will and then make my chocolate covered pretzels. Good idea.

I always get up too early for work then end up sitting here tired as hell waiting to go. How odd.... I got my hair cut yesterday- I wanted a trim to the cuuute short haircut I got and I ended up with a completely different haircut that is very very short. Ick. I don't like it- leo does but it is not "my" haircut I have loed the past 7 weeks and could not wait to show my fam at xmas in 10 days. Grah.

I know it is a little ways away yet but I am making tukey, mashed potatoes, squash, green bean casserole, stuffing, and rolls for lunch today. I work on Thanksgiving day and Leo and I are not able to go down to celebrate with our families then and I was craving the food so why not? I also put up our tree and Christmas decorations last thursday. Te he he.


We got new phones and a new service plan with AT&T yesterday. Goodbye Sprint! I love our new phones- we got the same ones- lol. Other than that I have been busy working A LOT and Leo has been studying. I got Christmas day through the 30th off so we are going to get to spend almost a week down at home! YaY! That also means my birthday is coming up- wowza! 24 years old.... Almost baby time damnit!


We have not turned on our heat yet but today it is coooold even with the oven on. Last night we turned on this space heater in our room- leo says it is more energy efficient but we need heat soon... BRRRR!

I wonder if I can keep the chain on and he can slide it through the slit....

Last night a little after six I was sitting in my livingroom and I heard like 5 "gun like" sounds and I was just thinking of what things they could be other than gun shots..... But, no, they WERE gun shots and this guy was killed RIGHT next door in these apartments that we toured. Gah.

...and still do not have any money!!

How does that work?



Anyways, just chillin tonight. I did some light grocery shopping and then made a blt for dinner. I vaccumed and now I am just going to watch some TV and go to bed early. Leo is gone tonight doing a vaginal exam on some poor woman- lol. I work at the crazy house tomorrow then at the ymca. I a looking forward to wednesday though because after work I am going to go to Kohls and use my coupon to get a new bra and maybe a new peice of clothing- woot! Nothing cheers me up about money issues than shopping!! *lol*


And I have a cold sore. In / on the edge of my nose. GRAHHH. So, that is painful / annoying and makes me grouchy.

So, yay a day off!! Can you imagine? Here is a little recap of the week.


Saturday ---> I felt sorry for myself most of the day because I picked up a darn over time shift that night but the shift went by easily and I will get paid this Tuesday and it will be on there!! :)
Sunday ---> I worked at the crazy house and it was, well, crazy.
Monday ---> I worked until 2:30 and then had to drive to the crazy house for a meeting then had to hurry my ass off to my first day at the YMCA at 3pm. Most of the kids were shy and a few were really cute but a couple were AWFUL. There is a girl there, lets call her D, who is this 19 year old looking 5th grader. My only responsibility was asking them to get into a line and she crossed her arms and looked my straight in the eye and did that little head shake attitude thing while saying "Oh My God!" Grah. Plus my co worker was equally as scary as she kinda yelled-talked to me about how she does not need a degree to work with kids and all you gotta do is show them respect and then in the same breath she YELLS at the kids constantly. (I did not even tell her I had a degree and my degree is in Social Work..?)
Tuesday ---> I worked at Mosaic and then had a minor breakdown-- stress, new job, loneliness, etc.
Wednesday ---> Worked at the crazy house and then the usual, walked sophie, cleaned, watched tv, bed.
Thursday ---> I worked 8-3pm at the YMCA. Two kids are on the block schedule and only one showed up so it was me, scary co worker, and then Kareem whom I love. I went to work that day determined to get to know my co worker a little more and show my personality a little bit. It worked. She does not seem AS scary as before but also told me something a little unsettling. She said that on Wednesday Lisa was asking all the kids if they had met me yet and that one troubled kid, D, said in front of everyone: "Yeah, she is the same color as you, White Trash!" (Me and Lisa are the only two white people worked at the YMCA and there are also only 2 white kids out of 60 at that YMCA so we are definitely a minority). So.....Gah. Scary co worker gave me some pointers on working with the kids, and after spending the day together she said she thought I would do fine which is good because I DO NOT want to be on her bad side. She is also just 17 and 3 months pregnant and told me how her bf is doing stuff that would get him like 30 years in prison and etc etc.
Friday ---> Worked during the day at my regular job and found out my co worker got in trouble for a rumor he thinks I spread which I had not even heard about so I will talk to Pat tomorrow about it (dumb!) and then went to the YMCA-- I am now at the "let me test you until you want to scream" stage with the kids. Grrr.
Today ---> Got up early, snuggled with Leo, took Sophie for a walk, went to Target, went out to lunch with Leo and then to a craft show, and now I am here watching Dexter Season 2 and paying some bills.

.... and just an fyi-- this upcoming week with be nearly exactly the same.... surprise!

What did you want to be when you were a kid? A teacher... and a Mom. ;)

What is your proudest accomplishment so far Ummm. Probably graduating college, and also marrying Leo, and also moving to Des Moines to help support Leo through school. Many small things along the way of life basically. :)

What is your dream job? Owning and running a coffee / tea shop. Or an adoption social worker. :)

Where do you see yourself in 10 years? A mother. a Social worker. A house owner.

What does it take to make you happy? Ice cream.

Ugh. I am sooo full. I LOVE the Macaroni Grill. The one where we lived closed but there is one heeeeeere. Today was interesting. Did you know you are not supposed to clean your ears with Q-tips? Well, I thought exactly opposite-- I clean my ears every morning with them. Anyways, this morning I was cleaning my right ear and all of a sudden my ear plugged up. You know how annoying that is? Well is STAYED plugged the WHOLE day. Right before I left for work I had leo drop in a couple of drops of this de-waxer stuff we have but it didn't do anything. It was AWFUL. So, at about noon I called the nurse hotline and she told me I most likely pushed wax back into my ear and that I would have to go to Urgent Care to get it fixed. So, Leo said he would try flushing it before we left and THANK GOD at around 3pm he flushed my ear repeatidly with warm water and finally a TON of wax (ick-sorry) came out and my ear FINALLY opened up!!! Going the whole day with one ear completely plugged was sooooooo not fun. At all.
After tha whole ordeal we went and ordered Leo some new frames and went out to eat and got PUMPKIN ice cream. YUM.


Sleeepy. I picked up overtime so I work 3-9pm tomorrow. Then I work through Wednesday at Mosaic and also start at the YMCA and work there Monday, Thursday, and Friday this week. Hope it all works out.

So yesterday I worked at the "Crazy" house and it was probably one of the best day I have had there thus far. They have been so bad lately but work for my clients was canceled so I took T shopping for three hours in the afternoon and the moring was filled with baking and no huge messes so yay! Today I work at the other house and I am going to treat myself with starbucks in the morning, we are making lasagna for lunch (yum!!) and then I am going grocery shopping afterwards. Tomorrow is my last day off until a week from Saturday so I better enjoy it!!


Other than that nothing is new. Just busy busy.... I want to clean out the spare bedroom closet. Exciting. :)

Ugh. I wore heels last weekend and now this weekend and now I have three BIG blisters on my toes and side of my foot. Ick. I have not really had a blister before- should I pop it? Ewwww!!


Fun news though- I got two awesome free CDs today. The new Sara Bareilles and the new County Crows. Yay 106.3 booth at farmers market. lol. Leo also had his white coat ceremony today. He took his oath and received his white coat and he is truly on his way to being a PA. Woot!


Other than that. I am going to be super busy. I am working 46 hours this upcoming week and then 62 hours the next. UGH. I mean, its a good thing but my new job is scheduling more hours than "usual" she said due to fall break because I would rather keep my work weeks BELOW 50. :/


BUT- in celebration I did go on a small pre- pay check shopping spree and got two new shirts and a new pair of jeans. That was fun.

I am having fun today so far. Leo has this upcoming week off for fall break so we have been able to spend some time together- finally! Last night we went to IHope then Super Target to do a little shopping. Today we walked Sophie around a lake, walked around a mall, cleaned our car, and went to this Antique Mall. Fun fun fun. Now we are watching movies for the rest of the night probably. I work the next 4 days (ewww!) but then I get 4 days OFF and I am going HOME with LEO!!! We have that wedding on Sat but we are leaving thursday morning-- we have to close a bank account, visit Leo's parents for the first time since moving up, go out to eat with my parents, have some drinks with some friends, and maybe do a couple of free loads of laundry- lol.


Did I mentioned I did get that job at the YMCA? I can't remember and I am too lazy to look but that starts in a couple weeks and it is just 2 or 3 days a week for a few hours at time after my other shift at work.

So, I have already showered, taken Sophie for a walk, cleaned up the kitchen, and have carrot cake baking in the oven. Yummy. Oooh- and I JUST made my first cup of coffee. I am a little nervous for my interview this afternoon only because I do want the job and I am hoping there is flexibility so I can work 4 days a week but if she wants me to work M - F then I will agree. I am also excited because if I do get this job we are going to get some new glasses- woop!


Other than that I am making sandwiches for Leo and I for lunch and I am going to go and eat with him and then from there I am going to go to my interview. Tonight I want to bath Sophie, make the meatloaf, and also clean the bathroom if I can find the strength- lol. But if I clean it tonight I don't have to this weekend... :) I do lead a boring life.

Work
So today I went to the fair with a co worker and two clients. We went from 8:30am - 1:30pm.


POSITIVES:
*I got a nice sun tan!
*Great exercise!
*A free milk shake :)
*I did not realize that Leo and I only saw HALF of what was there so next year I know we need to make a day of it.
*I got PAID to walk around for 5 hours at the fair.
*I really liked the co worker who I went with- had some great convos.
*The weather was beautiful and for the first couple of hours it was not very crowded.


NEGATIVES:
*For the first couple of hours I was partnered with D. She is the aggressive one who usually beats me up. I quickly found out I pretty much had to have my arms wrapped around her the whole time- she was constantly reaching for people to "shake their hands" and when people actually let her do that she will tug them near her. She also raised her arm to hit this guy who was facing away from us and nearly gave me a heart attack. I also grew SOOO tired because she would LEAN toward people as we walked by them.
* I was so relieved to switch clients but was POURING sweat because I had to push L in her wheelchair up STEEP hills and through grass and so on. Much less stressful mentally but SOOO draining physically since I just recently started working out my body is kinda sore/tired anyways.



So, all in all a pretty fun work day. I have tomorrow off then work all through out the week until next thursday. BUT- I have been doing a lot of research on possible Inns for Leo and I to stay at when we go to Maine next year for our "yay leo is almost done with school, we are going to work forever after this, we have so much out in loans it does not matter, better get out one more time before we have babies" trip. I am SOOO excited- I LOVE Maine and I have never even been there.

Well, I am glad it rained today. My co worker was supposed to take a client to the Iowa State Fair but decided to go tomorrow. I work at the 'crazy' house tomorrow and a client there was supposed to go today as well but I get to go with her tomorrow with my co worker from the other house. Yay. Free admission, $6 for food, and getting paid to wander around the fair. Anything to get me outta that house! Today was interesting though. My co worker who trained me who I like a lot, always feels the need to confess things to me....her meth use...her abortion...her teenage pregnancy stories....etc. I like listening and I do not judge- I really like her and we do have some interesting convos.


I am bummed women's gymnastics are on so late tonight because I did not sleep well last night and if it starts at 10:30pm tonight I am not sure I should stay up to watch it. Argh.


Also doing a emergency load of laundry- I got home to a large, wet puke spot right on my bed through the mattress protector as well. Argh.

Currently....
I read the whole twilight series in 4 days and now, since I can't get it out of my head, I am going to re-read it but slower this time to really enjoy it. I ead it so fast because I was desperate to find out how things ended but now that I know (and am happy) I can read through the more difficult plot parts and know that it will be ok. Sad that I am so involved in this FICTIONAL story but to each her own. =)


Work....
...is going well. I worked at the "Crazy" house and only had my hair pulled once today but she definitely made it count....! I picked up a shift so I just have thursday off this week which will be a pull BUT in a month I have 4 days off in a row to go home WITH Leo so I have that to look forward to... (and save for)!


Life...
The past couple of days have not been SO HUMID and HOT so we have been able to open our windows during the night and in the mornings and not melt when we take Sophie for a walk. We went to the Iowa State Fair this past friday and it was fun. It is just odd how it all works out. We pre bought our tickets so that was $14. To eat costs money so that was $16. Drinks another $15 (one beer, a milkshake, and a diet pepsi). Parking $6. One ride $8. It was just... too expensive. I mean, to pay $14 to get in and not have a lot to do than stuff you have to pay money to do is hard. I did like looking at some of their "exhibits" which were mainly cattle and farm animals... iowa.... ;) If I had endless amounts of money I would have probably had more fun ESP if I could afford the tickets to Led Zepplin and Foreigner who are playing their this week.
I am also trying to watch some of the Olympics. One gymnastic competing is from Des Moines so... represent! ;)

.....cant...post....twilight....series...is...taking....over....my....life....

I will have read the whole series by saturday and i started tuesday... *sheepish smile*